He had twelve years of believing a different story.
Last Sunday, I made him scrambled eggs and beans.
His favorite.
I took the little blue knitted cap out of the old bread bag and placed it beside his plate without saying anything.
He picked it up.
It fit in the palm of his hand.
“Was this mine?”
“I knitted it for you.
Before you were born.
Before someone told me you had died.”
He sat silently for a long time.
Then he slipped it into his pocket.
He still did not call me Mom.
Not yet.
But a little while later, without looking at me, he asked if I could make him eggs again next Sunday.
I told him yes.
Every Sunday for as long as he wanted.
Women are taught to stay silent so they do not make a scene.
I stayed silent for twelve years, and because of that silence, I almost lost my son forever.
If something does not make sense, ask questions.
Even if your voice trembles.
Even if it is your own mother telling you to let it go.
You cannot always recover everything.
I got my son back.
The twelve years I lost?
No one can ever give those back to me.
